Rocks and Rakes

You turn your sad eyes to look straight into mine,

and for just a moment we steal a moment from time,

I tell you through tears I’m doing just fine,

I know you see through it, you know I am lying.

 

I’m sorry I’m not stronger, but I promise I’ll try,

seeing you like this seems to defy,

everything I’ve ever known it’s testing my truths,

your heart is so beautiful, and so beautifully misused,

 

I look on so helpless, unable to fix this,

but there is no way that I would ever miss this.

I wish you felt how much you mean,

but the further I push the sentiment, the harder you seem to lean,

in the opposite direction, numbness growing into an infection.

I want you to see past the deflection.

 

I want…

I want…

I’m sorry I’m not stronger, but I promise I will try,

seeing you like this defies my truths,

your heart is so beautiful, and so beautifully misused,

 

It shouldn’t be about me but suddenly it is,

A perfect re-enactment, a modern-day Le Mis,

your testing a muscle I’ve had locked away,

Push it too far and it may break today.

 

I’m sorry I’m not stronger, but I promise I will try,

I have to take a step back, I can’t let you see me cry,

But seeing you like this defies my tested truths,

The moments I should have spent with you, wasted in my youth.

Your heart’s been so beautiful, so beautifully misused.

 

 

 

The never-ending pain begins to take its toll,

a ten-pin takedown pulling at the soul.

Like a rake over rocks, to get the ball to roll,

each pin we pick up starts feeling like a lull.

How can we convince you, you’re riding on the fence?

From this side of things,  it doesn’t make sense

 

I’m sorry I’m not stronger, but I promise I will try,

I have to take a step back, I can’t let you see me cry,

But seeing you like this defies my tested truths,

The moments I should have spent with you, wasted in my youth.

Your heart’s been so beautiful, so beautifully misused.

 

Without you, there would be no me to console.

Without you, we could never be whole.

But no one else can make you see,

the golden role you play to me.

 

 

 

 

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